This is iT...

Whatever is it, I am here now.

Alone in this foreign country, Aberdeen, Scotland.

It's really scary when i first step in here, all the worries come to me, and make myself nervous.

Perhaps maybe this is the first time i travel so far, and I don't have any friend here yet so far.

The housemates look good. They are nice.

But, I still need my privacy cause i can't get my own room yet until friday, currently is sharing with a bangla, who also a foreign student here.

About this place, I am still not pretty sure about it yet cause i haven't have chance to explore here yet. I had a short walk this morning when I got here, and... I don't really like this place.

It's very peaceful and silent here, everyone here looks relax and calm. Well, people like me are still prefer living in a busy city. @.@

This place looks bored (first impression) gotta see how after few more days here. haha

It's really very less asian here i guess. So, it's all on my own now!

damn!

There are no fear in my mind, but just "What im gonna do next?" and gonna keep myself thinks positive!!! Negative thinking makes me down!

This is iT..

Half of my heart, Half of my heart...

Half of my heart, or can says most of my heart, is actually praying that my visa can't get approved!!! So that I can go another side. :D

But another half of my heart, I'll even burdens my family financial problem D: I can get this chance, I should already feel satisfy for it and not ask for anymore.

Maybe is because the place that I am going now I don't have any friend there, that's why my heart is keep thinking about the negative way.

I really hope like what other says, everything will be okay, but so far I really dint know anyone yet, that is going to that area. So.. Pray hard! I hope i can overcome this days that coming soon. C:

This is iT..

Just had a maggi..

There was a topic with my friends during tea time section yesterday.. It's about a friend that he actually cannot live at his own, doesn't mean he is not a independent person and always have to rely on people. Just that he always need someone to accompany him and talk to him. (Not girl friend but is a good friend)

I silent for a while and think... Actually, I'm that kind of person too. The thing i most worry about every time i think about living independently oversea is.. How if i Don't have friend there???

A lot of people always think that I'm gay. I think about myself. Maybe, is because I being single for quiet long or, i maybe react abit "cc", i admit that, yea, whatever!!! Or i always stick to a friend for long. Not I don't want to be in a relationship, but person like me enjoys single life too much, just can't settle down!!!

and more worst, recently someone just missunderstand-ed me i'm a gay. Zzz a drunk story, I don't feel like talk about it anymore!!!

I'm always looking someone that i can tells my story, who will also stand at my side and trustable. So, I am kinda reliable-to-other person too.

I can't says about other people, because I have my weakness too. Haha..

This is iT..

I'm....

I don't know what to say but, It's kinda weird feeling since I got back from Australia...

I have nothing to do in Malaysia, Friends are all busying with their work/intern/parents/gf/whatever/dontfeellikemeetingme/lazy/whatever/fuckkaki/blablabla..
I don't blame them, because they really have their own things to do..

It's really boring over here.. Everyday have nothing to do.. I feel myself getting more lifeless everyday, and lazy. I am only waiting everyday, reply from uni,visa, and don't know what i am waiting for..

Hahahahahahaha.

This is iT..

The last day in Melbourne.

- Day 20 -

People always only start appreciate things when he/she almost lose it, at the begining, this city bored me very very much, I even feel like postpone my flight earlier so that i can go home earlier. Luckily, at the last week, i started to fall in love in melbourne. I love this city, hope can study here but I know i can't. :(

Nothing much in the last day since my flight is early in the morning, 0935am, and... I almost miss my flight! God damn it, overslept!!! @.@ Woke up at 8am, Thanks to my new friend, Justin Oon, He woke me up, if not, I'm can't typing this here and spending another week in Melbourne, haha, i really hope i can do that but I'm running out of budget, so must go home! LOL.
Last person boarded the plane and the plane delayed because of me. :( So sorry.

This whole trip, really specially thanks to my Melb's dai lous, Chow Di and Justin Oon, for layan me. Bring me out everyday, sometimes cheng me makan, and let me use laptop and entertain me big time. Never regret about the decision to visit Melbourne, indeed, i think i will go back there again during my next holiday, if my capital allow me to do so.

Mr. Chow Di Thian

Mr. Justin Oon

Well, bye my friends, Gonna miss you guys so much. :)

(Y)

This is iT...

Day in Melbourne.. one of my emo-iest day..

- Day 15 -

Emo? Cause at first was planned to have a short trip to sydney, but it din't goes well, cause i can't get myself an accommodation. So i gonna stone in melbourne until the day i go back. Damn it. Damn it hardly. Not this city not good, but i come as a tourist, i had already seen enough and stay enough in this city, i am deadly bored over here, can't wait to go back already, if i'm in kl, i would be a happy and happening boy. Zzz

I'm sad, i suddenly feel damn lonely, and fucking "duo gao yu" (cantonese) to my friends. Zzz, but never mind, don't want to talk about it anymore.

Oh come on, i pay a fucking expensive air ticket to stone at this city everyday? online and face booking and movie at home almost everyday!!!! Crap, like i at home can't online.

The plan that planned before i came to malaysia was a happy plan, which "How i meet your mother" gang reunion, and everyones will be as happy as we was in penang last time, and we can have fun around melbourne. Well, i guess thing doesn't happen according to the plan. Everyone is busy with his own shit, and left each other behind. Zzz Well.. I don't wish to says this but if this continue, this group won't last long, for sure.

Well. 6 more days, then i can go back. i should feel happy, but also, how to pass these 6 more days man. Urghhh.. If next time anyone ask me to come melbourne again, please expect a big N O, NO from me. It's enough!

Still, among these days, really thanks to my new friend, Chow DI and Justin Oon, to bring me around here, always fetch me goes around and brought me tour around melbourne city, they are really good people! :) But quiet sorry cause i'm a boring and quiet person, i think i bored them sometimes. hahaha..

I miss malaysia, and my friends :)

This is iT...

One of the highest living cost city in the world - Australia, Melbourne

- Day 8 -

The first impression from me to this city is, well-managed, strict, chilling and relax.

It's really a good choice to be a student in this city, although the living cost is really high, every thing over here are very expensive, but many of it, are worth of paying it, such as food, drinks, coffee. There are really good and you enjoy the fullest.

I'm here during the winter, and i'm staying over at my friend's place, a very cool apartment. this is the first time i been experience a winter season, it's really really cold. For a malaysian like me, it's really take me some times to adapt this kind of weather, still I like winter.

Unlike malaysia, people over here are pretty cool (except some of them are really racist, they hates asian, like suddenly scold you while you walking on the street, or in the pub/club or, Don't serve you while you visiting their shops) , you feel that this is a good city to stay, because it's really relaxing. There is no night life over here, shop here are closing very early, mostly at 5pm, so at night, normally they don't have much thing to do, except chill in the bar, stay home or friend's home. (the bar close very early too) So better make lot of friend first if you thinking of heading here.

After 9 days over here, i started to love this city. At first few days, i found this city really really Boring..... what i did is only eat and eat and eat and eat.. @.@ although food here are nice and have variety of choice, like korean, japanese, western, chinese, vietnamese, bla bla bla .. Except eat there don't have any else thing to do. most of the time I also stay home and play ps3 or watch movie, while my friend visiting the casino. Still, most of the time i still feel this place is boring. Zzz

Well, i kinda regret i dint choose to study at australia at the first time, but i know even i choose here, my family cannot afford it, cause the cost is too high, but i'm still happy i have a chance to visit this place. :) Appreciate!