This is iT...

So basically, Tonight is the last night I'm gonna live in this house.

I have such a complicated feelings like a bitch for some reason that I don't even have a clue about.

I do Really enjoyed my time staying at this room with my flatmate before, although i still gave a lot of trouble to them and annoyed them quiet a lot of times.
Well, not like i'm not gonna see them again but as a 1st year and the 1st place that I stay since I came to Aberdeen. Everything's pretty decent to me. I do hope to with together with my bro in the coming flat but seems like it's actually quiet not possible.
Btw, as a fresher who trying to adapt and live like a Scottish, I did learn a lot of stuff from my flatmates and ready taught me a lot of stuff, also kinda changed a little of my behaviors and personality. Not in the bad way. Also experience tons of stuff that I never had a chance to do with and quiet lot of life lessons.

It's really not easy to live in a stranger place and have to be really tough all the time. It's not easy when you have no home to rely on when you at your deepest desperation of help!
I do have a lot of memories with all my mates here and do appreciate the time.
Hope the luck is always with me.

Basically, I'm homeless at the moment and I still have no clue where can I go tomorrow and have to leech at someone's place for a while and also. I'M FUCKING BROKE! My bank card is currently -22.45 Pound due to all the temptation i failed to resist. I still have a good time anyway. So i've just finish pack my stuff and left the rest for tomorrow and gotta leave this place before 2pm Tomorrow. Oh well. Life is amazing. I'v been trying not to complain so much about my life and be happy about everything! ;) 

Well...
Enjoy your day to whoever still reading my blog and taking all my moan and complains. xD
Cheers.

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I never know......

I always thought that way. Whatever I thought I'm until today...
My best mate, Actually dislikes a lot of stuff about mine.
I'm actually kinda can't accept the truth about this to be honest. I always claims that he is 1 of my best mate ever I met in my life but in exact, I actually did so much thing that so annoys to him,
I have no words to say about it. Even a thousand sorry also can't help about the bad that I did.

Sometimes I do feel like just go back home and end all this bullshit, I did thought I should stay here for a longer period since I know a couple of good friend here but seems like, I'm actually a terrible friend.

Kinda feel like just wanted to kill myself, but nah, not that stupid to end my life. Guess nothing else I can do to rescue what I've done. Even a sorry can't really help much on the stuff that I've done.

Hope time can bleach this all away but there is still a scar will left in my memory as a warning next time.
I don't blame anything but myself.

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Why am I So Pathetic???

I never had this thought in my life ever before but sometimes I'm really think about ending my life!!!!
Isn't that's because of this Depression's Symptom??

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Oh god. Just took a Depression Test and this is my result :SSSSSS

Major Depression: High-Moderate

Dysthymia: Slight-Moderate

Bipolar Disorder: High-Moderate

Cyclothymia: Very High

Seasonal Affective Disorder: High

Postpartum Depression: N/A

http://www.depressedtest.com/

I'm kinda worry. hahahaha. :S

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Complicated feelings day....

Not sure if it's too much going on or it's because of nothing is going on here. Just don't feel alright today..
Moody again. Seriously, I'm gonna be a serious moody man soon, or I'm already otw being that.

Bad choices when you approved your parent's friend request on facebook when you had a drinking problem. They been stalking me for a while and today, I'm decided to blocked them. Sorry for that parent but seriously, I'm an adult now and I'll go on with my life, Stop acting like I'm still some 7 years old boy.

Recently also bit fed up with girl's behavior. An immature 1, been keep acting like "Oh, you are such a good friend, Can we be Best friend??" Seriously, sometimes people just have to cut the crap and straight to the point. What you want from me?

I been realize I'm being over nice person, and people just keep on looking advantages from me. I knows it, just that i keep silent all the time and I don't want to ruins the friendship, but seriously, when I need help, Where the fuck you guys go??? I tried so hard, to join the people here, everyone just looking for a party's mate not a trouble mate. When you have trouble, just fuck off.

I really fed up with my life in here. Depress me so much.