This is iT...

Seriously..

I don't care if this is racist or what, but come one, what's gonna end up everything I hang out with you guys?!
Perhaps imma Stingy person, and easy to get pissed, if i am, yeah, you 2 just never failed to make me pissed. Mtfs.

Learn to respect people before you talk shit about people, Your religion din't educate you about that? If that, i'm proud of my religion although im kinda free thinker here.
What? People who drinks, "Arrh, no life". Look at yourself, who are the one lifeless now, How do u understand life of a drinker while you don't drink? Judge from the views that your religion taught you? Can you be just like your other friend and start learn some respect?
Don't ever think everyone can stand for your arrogant and "bullshit" talks, there are actually sounds exactly stupid to me!

Don't mess with Chinese!!!

This is iT...

It's been weeks here...

In Aberdeen, Scotland. Almost 5weeks/ More than a month being in this place, settle down, enrollment, Register bank and university.

Well, It's not a big place/city like other city in UK, It's small, but crowded place. Not much tourist, So you won't see any "special happening" event going on here, but during weekends, the street is Happening Enough! hahaha.

People here are nice, they are really really really friendly and helpful, no racism. They take racism and anti-social as a crime, to protect people like us maybe. Still, quiet hard to communicate them sometimes, because personally, my English is terrible. They speaks so fluently and fast. Sometimes you won't know a single thing they talking about ,which is kinda difficult, cause me day dreaming most of the time in class, because don't really understand some of the lecturer, but i wonder is anyone there understand too -.- Hmmm...

Not much Asian in this place! But you will still meet some randomly on the street! haha, quiet peaceful here! I went to Edinburgh Last Saturday, It's a tourist spot, so it's crowded by a lot foreign(includes Asian). But i kinda like that place, because you have a lot of variety of restaurant and food!

Talk about food, this place is kinda terrible!! Food here suck! The price of dining outside is quiet similar to price in Australia. Not much Different for the price, but there is a big gap between Portion and Taste!!! Australia's food is so much nicer, have lot of cuisine choices some more! This place, is terrible.. Example, You pay around RM30-40 (which is around6-8 pound in uk, and 10++ dollar is Australia), Portion in uk is so small and you won't feel the satisfaction of, I JUST HAD A GOOD MEAL! So until now, I'm still hunting a good restaurant with reasonable price.

I'm getting Thinner, :( I am suppose to get fatter! sigh.

This is iT...

Whatever is it, I am here now.

Alone in this foreign country, Aberdeen, Scotland.

It's really scary when i first step in here, all the worries come to me, and make myself nervous.

Perhaps maybe this is the first time i travel so far, and I don't have any friend here yet so far.

The housemates look good. They are nice.

But, I still need my privacy cause i can't get my own room yet until friday, currently is sharing with a bangla, who also a foreign student here.

About this place, I am still not pretty sure about it yet cause i haven't have chance to explore here yet. I had a short walk this morning when I got here, and... I don't really like this place.

It's very peaceful and silent here, everyone here looks relax and calm. Well, people like me are still prefer living in a busy city. @.@

This place looks bored (first impression) gotta see how after few more days here. haha

It's really very less asian here i guess. So, it's all on my own now!

damn!

There are no fear in my mind, but just "What im gonna do next?" and gonna keep myself thinks positive!!! Negative thinking makes me down!

This is iT..

Half of my heart, Half of my heart...

Half of my heart, or can says most of my heart, is actually praying that my visa can't get approved!!! So that I can go another side. :D

But another half of my heart, I'll even burdens my family financial problem D: I can get this chance, I should already feel satisfy for it and not ask for anymore.

Maybe is because the place that I am going now I don't have any friend there, that's why my heart is keep thinking about the negative way.

I really hope like what other says, everything will be okay, but so far I really dint know anyone yet, that is going to that area. So.. Pray hard! I hope i can overcome this days that coming soon. C:

This is iT..

Just had a maggi..

There was a topic with my friends during tea time section yesterday.. It's about a friend that he actually cannot live at his own, doesn't mean he is not a independent person and always have to rely on people. Just that he always need someone to accompany him and talk to him. (Not girl friend but is a good friend)

I silent for a while and think... Actually, I'm that kind of person too. The thing i most worry about every time i think about living independently oversea is.. How if i Don't have friend there???

A lot of people always think that I'm gay. I think about myself. Maybe, is because I being single for quiet long or, i maybe react abit "cc", i admit that, yea, whatever!!! Or i always stick to a friend for long. Not I don't want to be in a relationship, but person like me enjoys single life too much, just can't settle down!!!

and more worst, recently someone just missunderstand-ed me i'm a gay. Zzz a drunk story, I don't feel like talk about it anymore!!!

I'm always looking someone that i can tells my story, who will also stand at my side and trustable. So, I am kinda reliable-to-other person too.

I can't says about other people, because I have my weakness too. Haha..

This is iT..

I'm....

I don't know what to say but, It's kinda weird feeling since I got back from Australia...

I have nothing to do in Malaysia, Friends are all busying with their work/intern/parents/gf/whatever/dontfeellikemeetingme/lazy/whatever/fuckkaki/blablabla..
I don't blame them, because they really have their own things to do..

It's really boring over here.. Everyday have nothing to do.. I feel myself getting more lifeless everyday, and lazy. I am only waiting everyday, reply from uni,visa, and don't know what i am waiting for..

Hahahahahahaha.

This is iT..

The last day in Melbourne.

- Day 20 -

People always only start appreciate things when he/she almost lose it, at the begining, this city bored me very very much, I even feel like postpone my flight earlier so that i can go home earlier. Luckily, at the last week, i started to fall in love in melbourne. I love this city, hope can study here but I know i can't. :(

Nothing much in the last day since my flight is early in the morning, 0935am, and... I almost miss my flight! God damn it, overslept!!! @.@ Woke up at 8am, Thanks to my new friend, Justin Oon, He woke me up, if not, I'm can't typing this here and spending another week in Melbourne, haha, i really hope i can do that but I'm running out of budget, so must go home! LOL.
Last person boarded the plane and the plane delayed because of me. :( So sorry.

This whole trip, really specially thanks to my Melb's dai lous, Chow Di and Justin Oon, for layan me. Bring me out everyday, sometimes cheng me makan, and let me use laptop and entertain me big time. Never regret about the decision to visit Melbourne, indeed, i think i will go back there again during my next holiday, if my capital allow me to do so.

Mr. Chow Di Thian

Mr. Justin Oon

Well, bye my friends, Gonna miss you guys so much. :)

(Y)

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Day in Melbourne.. one of my emo-iest day..

- Day 15 -

Emo? Cause at first was planned to have a short trip to sydney, but it din't goes well, cause i can't get myself an accommodation. So i gonna stone in melbourne until the day i go back. Damn it. Damn it hardly. Not this city not good, but i come as a tourist, i had already seen enough and stay enough in this city, i am deadly bored over here, can't wait to go back already, if i'm in kl, i would be a happy and happening boy. Zzz

I'm sad, i suddenly feel damn lonely, and fucking "duo gao yu" (cantonese) to my friends. Zzz, but never mind, don't want to talk about it anymore.

Oh come on, i pay a fucking expensive air ticket to stone at this city everyday? online and face booking and movie at home almost everyday!!!! Crap, like i at home can't online.

The plan that planned before i came to malaysia was a happy plan, which "How i meet your mother" gang reunion, and everyones will be as happy as we was in penang last time, and we can have fun around melbourne. Well, i guess thing doesn't happen according to the plan. Everyone is busy with his own shit, and left each other behind. Zzz Well.. I don't wish to says this but if this continue, this group won't last long, for sure.

Well. 6 more days, then i can go back. i should feel happy, but also, how to pass these 6 more days man. Urghhh.. If next time anyone ask me to come melbourne again, please expect a big N O, NO from me. It's enough!

Still, among these days, really thanks to my new friend, Chow DI and Justin Oon, to bring me around here, always fetch me goes around and brought me tour around melbourne city, they are really good people! :) But quiet sorry cause i'm a boring and quiet person, i think i bored them sometimes. hahaha..

I miss malaysia, and my friends :)

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One of the highest living cost city in the world - Australia, Melbourne

- Day 8 -

The first impression from me to this city is, well-managed, strict, chilling and relax.

It's really a good choice to be a student in this city, although the living cost is really high, every thing over here are very expensive, but many of it, are worth of paying it, such as food, drinks, coffee. There are really good and you enjoy the fullest.

I'm here during the winter, and i'm staying over at my friend's place, a very cool apartment. this is the first time i been experience a winter season, it's really really cold. For a malaysian like me, it's really take me some times to adapt this kind of weather, still I like winter.

Unlike malaysia, people over here are pretty cool (except some of them are really racist, they hates asian, like suddenly scold you while you walking on the street, or in the pub/club or, Don't serve you while you visiting their shops) , you feel that this is a good city to stay, because it's really relaxing. There is no night life over here, shop here are closing very early, mostly at 5pm, so at night, normally they don't have much thing to do, except chill in the bar, stay home or friend's home. (the bar close very early too) So better make lot of friend first if you thinking of heading here.

After 9 days over here, i started to love this city. At first few days, i found this city really really Boring..... what i did is only eat and eat and eat and eat.. @.@ although food here are nice and have variety of choice, like korean, japanese, western, chinese, vietnamese, bla bla bla .. Except eat there don't have any else thing to do. most of the time I also stay home and play ps3 or watch movie, while my friend visiting the casino. Still, most of the time i still feel this place is boring. Zzz

Well, i kinda regret i dint choose to study at australia at the first time, but i know even i choose here, my family cannot afford it, cause the cost is too high, but i'm still happy i have a chance to visit this place. :) Appreciate!

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a Pain in the ass..

I'm consider lucky to born in this family. My family members are just moderator income people, we are not rich, but just can maintain normal living cost, and can't afford High level of enjoyment in life. A lot of expensive thing we also cannot afford.

Still, They making my dream comes true, a dream I wish for so long but I don't even dare to think about it sometimes, with the understanding of my family financial ability.

Finally, My dream has comes true, I can finally study abroad just like other people. Really thanks to my family, especially my Aunt who gives me the most support.

The demanding and capricious me, still don't satisfy, and wanted to have a visit to other country before I leave. I know this is so wrong and very wasting money but please forgive my sturdiness because this is the very first time I can step out from this country. Yes, I'm just like a lot of people out there, never been to other country before, even Thailand or Singapore. Although this trip is really over, cause me freaking a lot.

Thank you for my family, especially my aunt.

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He's a lucky man i can says...

He always anything that he wants and someone to support him..

Everywhere he goes, he can always bump into his friend...

Whenever he needs help, someone will be there to help him.

I'm not sure that what makes him so cool, and this is not because I'm jealous about it..

He's great but just never appreciate what people did for him. Looks around him, a lot of people treat him as a true friend but sometimes, but he never willing commit to his friend and just care for himself most of the time! I'm just think this is kinda selfish. He never care for other people feeling, not willing to commit to people that offered him help before. Especially things that's threatening his benefits, he always defend for his. Still, people like me are stupid enough, who still willing to offer him a hand after all the selfish cases. Silly.

So.. I just think that, people should always appreciate what other people did or committed for you. It's not easy to find a true friend that can support you always. Think about it...

This is iT...

It's a bad night....

Today is the day of my best friend leaving to Australia for his study, my best best best best best friend ever in these years, :,( sighhh.. Can meets him for a very long time, gonna be emo and lonely in Malaysia. After his departure, Malaysia seems no longer a happy land for me. hahaha.

Thanks for being such a good friend to me, always fetch me along, and bring me to have fun around.. Hard to find someone like you, you are just irreplaceable, i'm gonna be missing you so much. Hope you be fine in Melbourne.

Take care my friend, Derrick Hoe.

This is iT...

Just another silent night..

Enjoying the silent of the night, where you can sit down quietly and think..

My 1st paper of this semester is on this Wednesday, but seriously I don't have the mood at all to make up my mind and study the shit. I been de-motivated during the busy assignment month, Everything started to move very slow, and lazyyyyy. That's really dangerous, especially you have only 2 more days and you gotta sit for exam. Sighhh.

Well, Still I'm gonna congrats most of my ex-foundation class ( Business & IT ) mates, Finally there are completely graduated. Well, at least they don't have to sit for exam. Haha.

Some of my friend are going back to hometown, which I'll really miss them, seriously!! I will. LOL

I can sense the gap now, a graduated people and a student. I don't know why but I just feel that they are different, their topic during yumcha section, urmm, maybe activities, just not like a student anymore, i guess.

Anyway, I still have my long way to go, and study extra now for my oversea dream :)

(Y)

This is iT...

small mistake, big impact..

My level 3 has comes to the end, in few weeks time. It's almost the end, and I'm only realize, I did a lot of mistakes this semester, it's such a screwed up sem, Well, everything is too late to says now.

1. Overated myself, in some particular subject, I put too much confidence inside, thought I am able to do that, and the shit im doing is on the right track. Well.. I was fooled by my own "brilliant-ness". My own Presentation skill was the thing that I'm most proud at, for myself. But now, i think i really admire the way of presenting of (i call them) "western-people" It's really amazing if you can talking nonstop in a presentation, maybe because of my poor english level too, my another barrier. Haha

2. Mind set thinking to leave. Keep thinking of that, Imma leaving soon, who cares!!! Well.. This is seriously big trouble, this way of doing tasks is terrible, everything I did is just aim for a pass, never go for perfect work. Now, the application not going so well. So.. I can imagine what my result will looks like now.

3. Confusing and lazyness remians. Well, this semester, no more cc time, no more skipping class or lazy hanging section. but still, too much of things can't be handle, and most of the time I keep depending on other people. It's very unacceptable behaviors, for me. Seriously, I don't really likes to rely on others, I can says I am more independent type of person, except when i really have to, Running out of ideas and seriously need some help!!!

Well. Still a really big room of improvement needed. Feels like Im the most useless person in da group. Damn.

I hope I could't be better next semester. Well.. Maybe won't have the chance anymore. Level 4 soon, and that's may be the Final.

I think, this university really not enough to fulfill me, I really needs to learn a lot more thing and need more chances!!!

This is iT...

Strangers, again

Well, I believe a lot of you guys, watch this video on youtube/facebook before this, it's a very interesting story about how a couple meets and go through all the lovely process and end up with break up and both become strangers to each other..

I think, it's not only happens on couple, friends too, and the chances of having that feeling is much more higher than couple, Don't you think so?

Okay, Skip through all the stages process thats been discuss about in that video, in friend, they do it in another way, not lovely derby way but just friend!!!

You may have chances to meet a lot of different faces in 1 day, somehow, you can get very close to each other, your do all the shit together, yumcha, movie, whatever.. But, Let's say if they don't meet for each other just for 1 month!!! You will feel the different.

I think most of you guys know what's the result.

1. Some of them, might end up with, they are still close friend as usual, still will be talking non-stop when meeting with each other..

2.Some of them, might end up with, a Hi-Bye friends, only greets to each other or perhaps will have further conversation like, how are you recently? What you been up to?

3.Some of them, might end up with, You saw him on the streets, but you don't says hi to him/her, even avoid/pretend you don't see or don't know him/her, and tell the friend that next to you, he's my friend last time..

I'm sure most of you people react like any of above before, even I did, Because too long time never speak with that person, you will feels the "shy" or "paiseh" -ness, or just, I don't have anything to talk to him/her also.

It's becomes a stranger to you again...

This is iT...

Not the first time..

Yea, This is not the first time, that I got blocked by policeman while I'm driving my johnny ( My silver Wira) Zzz.

I was on the way to Al bakath to watch Man utd vs Schalke match with my friend, Tshien, saw 2 policeman riding their bike and kinda chilling and enjoy the silent of the midnight. So I try to behave a little on the road to not disturb them.

Still, 1 of the policeman speed up and flash me with his torch light. Zzz I was like, Again......?????? -.- Random stuff, License, Ic, and get down the car. Zzz

He checked my pocket, checked my wallet, and ask me some random question, and we actually chat for a while. LOL. Maybe he saw my wallet only have 12 bucks left, so they decided to let me go. Hahaha

Whatever, Perhaps is my car yong sui, have the bad guy look. Like I'm storing some drug in my car, yea, He actually ask me, " Ada simpan bubur tak? " ZZZzzz, Anyway, he's not the first policeman who ask me that, so.. It's okay.

Siennn, Everytime I get involves in this kind of case, always reminds me the few best and retarded friends that I have. Hahaha..

So, Hey, How you guys doing?!?

Is a silent night comes with sudden rains here..

Tonight I will have some good sleep and lot of people will have trouble to wake up I guess. Haha

This is iT...

aGainst the Virus..

The first thing I woke up in the morning, is switch on my Computer.

Quote by my best friend, If you want to know whether i woke up already or not, Just stay tunned on your facebook, If you read any update from me, means that I'm awake!! xD

Yea, I am facebook addicted!! -.-

As usual, Turn on my Computer this morning, and saw something new in my computer, It's call, Antivirus_Antispyware_2011. I never installed anything, yesterday or today, and it keep pop up and scanning my computer says virus found. The first i heard about it, i know it's fake.

First, non of the anti-virus can scan a computer for so damn fast and says you pc is infected with plenty of virus, except your pc is new, but, will you find plenty of virus from a new pc?

Second, I am using window xp, and it's showing window Vista interface, Come on lahh. Haha

I try to click the button "clean my computer" but it requires license key, So i try to remove it from "Add/Remove programs" but it still requires un-installation key, What the fuck is this, make me more confirm that this is a virus.

So i have no choice but to nudge my friend, the genius of Hacking and Computing Mr.John Oh Yaw Theng, For more about him, kindly click this link for his Blog ---> http://streamofbits.blogspot.com/

According to him, this Antivirus_Antispyware_2011, is some hacker system, to hack you credit card account, atm, or other password that related to money!!! He guides me and show me a video about how to removed it, I followed, install another antivirus software which also requires an activation keys in order to remove that annoying hacking softwares!!! But the antivirus that i just installed did help me to blocked the hacker system!!! Still, it's not solving my problem. -.-

At last, i have no idea but to use system restore.

Restore >restart > DONE!

This is iT...

The Postpone...

I really don't know, it's a good idea of postponing the RESM assignment due date, it's about the proposal for Final Yea Project, pretty hard piece of shit, the hardest assignment for this semester, I had been stressful for quiet a long time, being emo and silent for so long, because of this motherfxcker shit.

Receive a message from my friend this afternoon and informed that the submission date is postpone, i wasn't happy at all, at first, I thought I will just finish it by tonight and tomorrow night, then hand in and that's. But, since now I have more time on it, means i gotta stress for another week. Damn this man, I'm sure the idea of postponing the submission date really makes part of my classmate be happy, for those who needs more time to finish it or those who not fully understand the whole crap behind this yet. Well, by the way, the postpone did make me lazy, the work that i can finish in 2 days, now I'm dragging it to a week. Holly piece of shit.

I'm suck!

This is iT...

Down by Jason Walker

I'm Tired.. All this I'm going through now, planning aboard is driving me crazy, add with all this stressful assignments and the final that is coming soon.

I'm been tired to communicate.. Lazyyyyy...

This is iT...

LOL at myself. -.-

Another stupid experience in my life, this time is really 1 of the stupidest thing i did in my life. -.- It's not very worst case but just very dumb and something that you will confirm laugh at me, even i laugh at myself...

As usual, I drive back home after class during traffic "peak" hour, took about half an hour get myself out of this 'TRAP' from TPM, so just ahead to Feed up my car petrol tank since the fuel signal is really annoying enough.

Went counter and pay, and back to car, as usual throw my key inside, lift up the petrol lock, and I ACCIDENTALLY SLAMMED THE FUCKING DOOR.

Was chilling while the petrol filling, just after its done, and try to get back into my car...

OMFG, My car key is inside the car and this genius AUTO-LOCK just locked my car!!! (Okay, I usually did this, and this is the first time its locked) -.- FML!!!

The door is still half-closed. like how you normally din't closed probably your car door. Fuck this shit and Fuck myself and this Genius AUTO-LOCK. I'm stupid enough to try snip my finger in between the narrow space of door and try to pull the door, yea, I'm already expected it's not going to work but just....... Natural respond? Luckily no ones there. LOL

No choice. Called up my Rescue team- My Dad, and please him to take the extra key from house and come to the petrol station where I'm stuck at. DUMB!!!!

Eff-ing bored there, walk around at the convenience shop of the petrol station and wasted RM.180 to buy a milk while waiting my rescue to come. Zzz

So just random sms and call some friend to kill my boredom.

Urgggh.. Maybe that's my karma because of make my CEO angry and pissed this morning. Hahaha.

Karma is a Bitch, and fuck this bitch!!! FML.

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A submission due date.

Last Friday was my 1st assignment submission date for my current semester, it was a subject call Engineering Project Management, EPM, I have to say that, the classes that I sits for so long, is seriously not related to what we suppose to learn, at all.

Project Management is a interesting subject for me, maybe because it's the position that I want to apply next time. It's interesting, that's why i gave all my best on this assignment. =P

It's all about working in a team, leadership, responsibility.... etc.

APIIT come on, can't you just don't get it!? Can you don't simple just ask a lecturer and throw them a subject and ask them to teach? How are they suppose to lecturer us when he/she actually don't have any basic knowledge about that particular sub?

Too pack of timetable and classes for lecturer too, but I guess this issues only happens on faculty of Engineering, Don't think business and IT affected, because there are too limit of Engineering lecturer available in this College!!!

I come class for no reason but only attendance, I'm feel quiet lifeless for my APIIT Uni's life, and attending the class, is a really difficult job for me. Wake up in the morning 730-8am, depends on whether I can wake up or not, take a shower, brush up and gotta dress up formal and wear shoes, (Fucking hot weather you want me to dress like this??? ~!@#$#$%^Y)

Drive my car to college and park at the car park which is around 20mins walking distance from college. ZZzzz Gotta pay 3 bucks some more for such creepy car park place! Wait for the van, ride on the van and go to College. -_________________________- Zzzz

I heard someone take Engineer student as joke before, we have an assignment that requires us to cut some Steel pieces by using hand saw, with formal dress-code on. -.- Damn.. You can imagine that. Hahaha. But if that was me, i probably laugh at other people also. LOL

Complains complains and complains, that what you heard from me most of the time, If you close enough to me. Haha. Sorry, that's just some habit i can't change. Night peeps.

This is iT...

Happy Birthday to Shu Ping Jiejie,

Is Shu ping's Birthday!!!! How can i miss it?? Haha.

Went to Italianese Restaurant @Garden to celebrates her day, with my following friends, It's kinda weird that, I bring along my friends cause we have a movie plan after the dinner, We ALL.

(Okay, It was the movie Scream4, movie was suck and boring. LOL Sorry for the decision xD )

Still gotta says sorry for that, hope you don't mind that I bring over my friend, and thanks for Zen for the night, the bastard who going back to Japan on the next day. =(

I can only meet this Lady and this Gentlemen once a long time, 1 at Kampar, 1 at Japan -.-'

I really appreciates every dinner that I had with them. Once in a while. LOL.

Well, Here he leave again, this time, will only meet again after some times I guess.

The dinner was alright except a little awkward of my friends, of course 'lah', simply bring people come to some unknown birthday celebration, if me I will feel shy also and keep quiet all the way. Haha, but, no big deal wert, just know more friend, isn't that great? Haha. At least my group are more friendly compare to yours, hahaha,

I'm sorry for that.

Entering the 22 ages, but we will still remains the same, our friendship, right?

This is iT...

Betting and decision making.

Still in the story of my study abroad plan, Its might getting bored here since im still talking about the same story in the previous 2 or 3 posts, but still.. I'm sorry.

UK or AUS, I been hesitating for quiet a long time, and this this kinda bother me, of course man, It' deciding my future. That's why education is important. Both of the land also good, also beneficial, but just depends, which benefits me the most. Of course it's really hard to judge like that, but I'm talking about future too, if i have a chance to working there, Why not?

Both country also has it own difficulty, and also different advantages at the same time.

I don't know why, maybe it goes to other country too, better will always think that UK is better, perhaps because of they are fully developed and advance country compare to AUS, but, the job rate in UK are hard, really really hard. So, it's not that easy also for Australia, come back to reality, I'm an Asian. LOL. Sounds easy, yea, get a job there, work there, earn there, but... do you really think so you can do that?

In my mind set, I had decided for AUS, but if you read my previous post, i guess you know what happening about AUS Unis offer-ing for me. So, it's quiet hard. Still.. pending.

Sometime you may obtain some advises from "Experience ages people", and what they says have their own points, It's not matter where you study and what you study, It's the grade and your performance that matter.

Yea, I'm understand this point, but sometimes, a little small consideration of what you study and where you study, it really bring a big impact to the rest of your life. If not, Why people always climbing for the highest and looking for the best!?

It's really hard to make a BIG decision for my type of person, yea, me. I can't make decision, and i usually needs lot of time to and figure what's the best and taking the least damage, but most of the time, my thinking FAILED!!! I FAILED MOST OF THE TIME!!!

Happy Birthday Aaron !

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Joe Brooks - Superman

A song introduce from 1 of my long distance friend, and I'm just addicted to it!!!

A very chilling song to me, just love it. Enjoy.

There are no words, to paint a picture of you girl
Your eyes,and those curves, it's like you're from some other world
You walk my way, oh God it's so frustrating.

So why do I disappear when you come near,
It makes me feel so small,
Why do I blow my lines, most every time,
Like I got no chance at all,

If I could be your superman,
I'd fly you to the stars and back again.
'cause everytime you touched my hand,
I can feel my powers running through your veins.
But I can only write this song,
And tell you that I'm not that strong.
'Cause I'm no superman, I hope you like me as I am, oh yeah, aladadadadi

No, it ain't no lie, I have to tell you how I feel,
But each time, that I try it gets a little more unreal,
You say my name, oh girl I can't stop shaking.

So why do I disappear when you come near,
It makes me feel so small,
If I could read your mind,
Girl would I find, any trace of me at all.

If I could be your superman,
I'd fly you to the stars and back again.
'cause everytime you touched my hand,
I can feel my powers running through your veins.
But I can only write this song,
And tell you that I'm not that strong.
Cause I'm no superman, I hope you like me as I am - ladadadi, woahhhh, woahhh, yeah, babadadadiii- ,woahhh, yeah

If I could be your superman,
I'd fly you to the stars and back again.
'Cause everytime you touched my hand,
I can feel my powers running through your veins.
But I can only write this song,
And tell you that I'm not that strong.
'cause I'm no supermaaaan,
I hope you like me as I am.

This is iT...

A life of an Half-way Engineer.

The fact has comes to be. From a non-Engineer, become Who are otw to be an Engineer.

I hates this course, and never consider about this course AT ALL, before I start my college's Life. Being a student, is really nice, I'm really enjoy it very much, especially all those special student' privileges. Loves it.

A Year 3 of Mechatronic Engineer, I have to admit, i'm still consider not a professional, or even a standard level for becoming an Engineer, I'm not brilliant enough for this course, and that's serious shit. But, It's already comes to year 3, i had already accepted everything. From a non-Engineering student, until a wanna be Engineer. I had see the potential of this Profession, and had thought about, what position i want to be, the future of me with this profession. It will be a tough way for me, for me that terrible in math, logic, formulas, and electrical.

I hope i won't fails anyone especially myself. Because it has becomes something that I wanna achieve now. Still i don't put so much hope on it. When Fall, it's pain. (Y)

Small dream, Big sky.

Hey my friends, I miss you all, and Penang.

This is iT...

The Power of Jealousy.

Your smile are fake. Every words you spoke to me, I can't take it no more.

I don't really mind when people hates me. I can't do anything if they really really really hates me until curse me to die everyday, perhaps not that serious.

I tried my best to be friendly to every people that i meet everyday. But if they still dislikes me for some other reason, so.. What can i do?

I'm not live for you, so, if you really hate me, I really can't do anything for it. So, normally i choose to, leave it lahh. Hating 1 person is really quiet suffering, so why don't you just forget the pass and move on with your life!? Haha.. Says is easy, but when do it, it's hard, I know, so do i.

I'm starts to feel bored with my Malaysia life. Don't misunderstand here, I still loves my friends. Every single one of them, especially the Chosen few!!!

But, the desire of starting a new life, it's still strong, whispering in my mind everyday. Time pass fast, I don't consider myself as young anymore, although i'm still 22 only. I had missed a lot of things in my life.

Who doesn't wants a good life? You want better, you gonna work harder!!!

How much i want to be in other way!!! A better of me. Australia or UK. I'm not really care anymore, either of them, are actually quiet fine with me now, since Australia's unis are really letting me down, day by day. That's enough! Always think of that, How better i can be, if i can be in other country, that's part of my dream!!! and now, I'm still going for it. How about you!?

Big Dream, Start now.

This is iT...

'Making a million friends is not a miracle. The miracle is to make a friend who will stand by you when millions are against you.' Have you find him/her?

(This is actually a phase that i copied from my friend from facebook, without copyright permission!! Haha)

People always think that I have plenty of friends, cause they seen me outing so much, but seriously, when it comes to, Who are actually your True Friend?? Seriously, Anyone?

Define True friend, the simplest can be, People who will really support you/ guide you/help you/understand you/accompany you/ bla bla bla..and no matter what,they doing it without taking any advantages!!! But..

Money minded and Reality of human being.. Reflect every human crystal clear.

So, i wonder.. Someday if i'm really dip inside a real deep big shit!!! Who will actually stand out and help me? Haha.. I hope there's at least one.

I hope...

When life keeps us blind..

Love, keeps us kind. It keeps us kind...

This is iT...

Damn...

This is the 2nd time, i received an email from Newcastle University, and they gave me an empty hope.

Still giving me conditional offer, which is 4 years offer. Shittt. Makes me a little ganjiong while im opening that email. Urgghhh.. This is my last hope man,

Since Deakin gives me 2.5 years and Swinburne so guai lan gives me only 1 year exemption means i gotta do 3 years there. Don't have enough capability to do that. =((( Sad.

Please Newcastle. I'm left here waiting for long enough! Give me a hope.

Amen.

Last visited to Tao with my Long lost friends, and a survivor from Japan Earthquake with his freaky story. LOL

(Cock-staring by Datin =S)

Wonder when will be the next time we will have outing like this.

Bye. Nights.

This is iT...

I'll Be There For You - FRIENDS

Well, this song is dedicates to one of my friend that being Emo recently.

There's nothing I can do for my friend but still i hope he can get over it soon!!!

Stay cool my friend!! l'll be there for you, i'm sure your other friends are too!!!

Thing comes, thing goes, and time will brings it all away. =)

This is iT...

A Hoooooot Day.

It's Cheng ming Season now, and i really really really hate it. Cause it's very hot, and i gotta get up crazy early morning (for me it's early!! xD)

My uncle. Yeng?

With some random pictures. Urgggh. Finally its finished, just wanted to go home and have a nice shower that time, sweaty and smelly. Zzz

Only slept for 2 hours, extremely exhausted, After went home and went futsal!!!

After futs went dinner with 2 GL Kids, Adrian( my Sifu) and Derrick (My wonderland) LOL

I'm getting worst and worst day by day, My temper. Damn, It almost out of my control today!!! Damn. Chill Chill Chill. LOL

Tired. Special for tonight, Im going to sleep soon. Haha.

This is iT...

Lifehouse - Hanging By A Moment (Music Video)

Chasing after you!? I'm afraid....

This is iT...

I called it a week.

Let's start from Thursday, received a bad news message early in the morning + class cancelled in the last minutes (While i'm just reach the car park) really make me Emo.

Still, luckily a good friend of mine called me and talk to me, makes me feel better. Haha, I love you my friend!!! xD Really hope to see you soon!! and also thanks for the call just now!! TEEHEE, such a caring friend i had! XD

Back to the story. Finally, i went to TAO Buffer Restaurant, for me, it's quiet okay to have a try on this restaurant. The food is just okay, not nice, but acceptable, but the environment a little small for me, narrow. Compare to Tenji, i'm still prefer this.

Well, Really had a wonderful dinner with my fellow old friends and a survivor from Japan with his freaky experience! Haha. Wonder how long we don't have a dinner like that night. It's all satisfy until this son of the bitch, says he need to go airport and end the day.

Still luckily i have my back-up plan to watch Sucker Punch. A show that i waited so long to watch!!! The graphic, fighting Scene, and of course the chics!!! xD

I'm kinda enjoy the movie but my friends are not. Haha, maybe because i love the creativity of this show. =) So, i'm gonna give a high rate on this show!! Clap clap!! Good job.

Back to reality.

Life is getting harder when you're getting older.

The family, the money, future, social, everything, i'm gonna start to learn maintains it. It's a pretty hard job but thats you call it, LIFE. Something you have to do it for a better life, what you need is just enjoy doingt that's what it!! You'll feel not that hard actually.

But recently have some problem with my temper. Don't know why just get anger easily.

I'm gonna learn to control it well, if not it really ruins my life. Already diu-ed few friends un-intentionally, and i'm feel sorry about it. Urrgghhh.. That's suck!!

Well, Have to learn how to be a good leader/ manager, if Engineer project manager is still my goal!! Haha. Guide me!

Enjoy the song above. and i called it a week!

This is iT...

1 day 2 posts. LOL

Urgghhh. Suffering with my beck pain. -.- Damnnn.

Doubting is the problem of the bed or the way i sit, but i think is the bed.

I tried, to request to change my bed like.. Before chinese new year?

And it's already March and going to April soon. Still don't have any feedback from my parents.

Told them my beck pain, and they says don't have money and ask me to hold. ( and they ordered themselves a new bed few weeks ago.. WTF??? -.-)

I do know a way how my mom will buy me a new bed IMMEDIATELY without any consideration!! That's, tell the sifu and ask him tell my mom!!! LOL That's even more effective that DHL deliever!!! LOL

Fine fine. It's okay. Just pray that my plan to go Australia/UK all goes right!! Damn.

Typed with a pain beck.

This is iT...

Literature Review...

The thing i hate the most now, I been headache about this for quiet sometimes, it's for my Proposal of Final Year Project of Mechatronics.

Damnnn. Been search and read and search and read for several night, till now, i am still confusing about what am i looking for. This proposal is seriously killing.

Don't really have much time left, and i have to read like more than 10 scholarly articles/ journals? That sounds crazy. Grrrrrrr..

My topic, Is a Robotic arm/leg for disability people. A Micro-controller Robotic arm/leg with thermal sensor build-in. I hope it's okay with this idea. But everyone is doing about the same concept of project, so, my tittle actually pretty normal.

Another Headache is Engineering Project Management. This project sounds nicer when you don't attend the class. I am quiet interested in Project Management field, and did think about to work on this field next time. Took a certificate course before this but, sorry to wasted the money. Hahaha. If you get what i meant. =)

The classes that i'm having now is totally different with the knowledge i should learn from exact project management. Wasting my time. Zzz. Still, i'm still trying my best to earn more from this field. Engineering is not really my filed of interest.

Engineering Design Department/ Project Management Department <3>

Typed with an Exhausted Soul.

This is iT...

The Band Perry - If I Die Young

This is iT...

Hey..

I am actually have a plenty of work, assignment bla bla bla are pending for me to finished it.

But the lazyness inside me, are fighting with each other.

Until now, I'm still haven't get my thing started, and the worst is, i don't even get my microsoft office installed yet.

Damn..

I know it suck! Haha.

Alright, just a self-complaining post. LOL

If i Die Young, Enjoy the song below.. =)

This is iT...

Another night, Let's call it a Full Moon nighTs.

Well, according to somebody, the distance between the moon and the earth, are the closer among all these century. Hmmm. And also a lot of rumors says that, will be more disasters happen because of this. Well, for me, i'm kinda think that all are bullshits.

But, after all the warning from the mother of nature and natural disaster, You can't blame people to think that way, plus, that can be one of the possibility to make the shit happen! So, Let's see..

Lot people actually asked me, What you feel/ what will you do? if the world is really comes to the end.

I don't know man, When it come, it comes. Nothing much i can do besides accepting the truth.

I'm not sure that can i rescue myself and my loves one like the movie 2012, but if i have a chance, of course i will do so! Haha.

A 1day trip to Ipoh with my fellows. Drop by to say Hi!

This is iT...

Is all about the _Empty me.

I am Empty. I am just nobody.

After all these years in my life. The struggle feeling in my heart. Question over question, topic over topic. Fighting with each other in my small empty heart. I do feel i think too much sometimes, over sensitive maybe.

I had lost my direction, I don't know what i really want. After all these days i'm staying in my College, make me feel lifeless, deducing the strength to live.

Maybe choosing to go is a good choice to start a new life, all over again, but maybe it's not.

I don't really complain much about my life, but i know i'm always complains lot about people, I'm sorry about that. No one are perfects!!! So do i.

Life? i'm kinda satisfy with it. Thank you for everything and everyone that brings me to archive this far.

Anyway, I'm gonna say Hi back to my old friend -> My panda ranger.

Abandon you for a long time, and now i'm back. I hope it works if i can say sorry to you, but i think that's just stupid. HaHa.

Well, sometimes i really wonder who really read this blog, but it's okay if the answer is zero, at least i do. =)

Well, it just another day another dawn.

Part of my Engineer fellows. All the best to all of us.

HI........ :)