Complicated feelings day....
Not sure if it's too much going on or it's because of nothing is going on here. Just don't feel alright today..
Moody again. Seriously, I'm gonna be a serious moody man soon, or I'm already otw being that.
Bad choices when you approved your parent's friend request on facebook when you had a drinking problem. They been stalking me for a while and today, I'm decided to blocked them. Sorry for that parent but seriously, I'm an adult now and I'll go on with my life, Stop acting like I'm still some 7 years old boy.
Recently also bit fed up with girl's behavior. An immature 1, been keep acting like "Oh, you are such a good friend, Can we be Best friend??" Seriously, sometimes people just have to cut the crap and straight to the point. What you want from me?
I been realize I'm being over nice person, and people just keep on looking advantages from me. I knows it, just that i keep silent all the time and I don't want to ruins the friendship, but seriously, when I need help, Where the fuck you guys go??? I tried so hard, to join the people here, everyone just looking for a party's mate not a trouble mate. When you have trouble, just fuck off.
I really fed up with my life in here. Depress me so much.
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
Monday, July 30, 2012
This is iT...
Hey, How's it going?
To be honest, i don't even know if anyone still Blogging and is anyone there actually still click on my blog whenever they are bored. Well, neither do I since i never visit my own blog for ages.
So, How things going guys? Been asking this question by my mates back in Malaysia most of the time: "When are you coming back?"
Not trying to be mean and I really appreciate all the regards you guys gave to me and I do miss you all. But really stop asking every single time. hahaha, it's pretty annoys me cause I'm not going back anytime soon which is kinda upset me as well. D:
Update about my life? I'm still in ma Summer Holiday, Which is seriously killing me!!!
Summer holiday in Scotland doesn't make you feel like "Summer" at all because it's fucking raining all the time and the Sun been hiding so much behind the cloud.
Mates are all far away and busy going on with their life but me, Still the same old me. Lazy, free, little bastard. I'm basically just hanging around everyday and do nothing!!!
Which is quiet upset, about myself, my life, Hopefully my parents as well. Hah!!
Yehh, I know, apparently from my facebook i've been drinking a lot here, but seriously, sometimes it wasn't that fun because I'm really feel so bored!!! Just I dont have any picture to upload for that! haha..
I really miss my holiday back in Malaysia last time, Had so much fun everyday and have so many different things to do there!!!
So, To all my friend back there. I loves you all! HEHE! Stay tunned (If you are actually reading my blog! LOL)
Bye guys.
To be honest, i don't even know if anyone still Blogging and is anyone there actually still click on my blog whenever they are bored. Well, neither do I since i never visit my own blog for ages.
So, How things going guys? Been asking this question by my mates back in Malaysia most of the time: "When are you coming back?"
Not trying to be mean and I really appreciate all the regards you guys gave to me and I do miss you all. But really stop asking every single time. hahaha, it's pretty annoys me cause I'm not going back anytime soon which is kinda upset me as well. D:
Update about my life? I'm still in ma Summer Holiday, Which is seriously killing me!!!
Summer holiday in Scotland doesn't make you feel like "Summer" at all because it's fucking raining all the time and the Sun been hiding so much behind the cloud.
Mates are all far away and busy going on with their life but me, Still the same old me. Lazy, free, little bastard. I'm basically just hanging around everyday and do nothing!!!
Which is quiet upset, about myself, my life, Hopefully my parents as well. Hah!!
Yehh, I know, apparently from my facebook i've been drinking a lot here, but seriously, sometimes it wasn't that fun because I'm really feel so bored!!! Just I dont have any picture to upload for that! haha..
I really miss my holiday back in Malaysia last time, Had so much fun everyday and have so many different things to do there!!!
So, To all my friend back there. I loves you all! HEHE! Stay tunned (If you are actually reading my blog! LOL)
Bye guys.
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Thursday, March 8, 2012
This is iT...
Good Job my Nap, Now I would able to sleep later night...
So life moving on... How's life going people? Having fun in working life?
Was talking with my mate, that he enlighten me some point, in term on keep on bitching about your group project, why don't just stand up and ask them to give you something to do? Yes I did, but not like, Do you have anything for me to do?
is Well, you have to give me something to do!!! "I'm not even kidding" that's what he said. Haha
It's true, all this life, I only being bitchy and complaining about stuff that I'm not comfortable with. Just like this group project. I been hiding for so long, keep silent all the time. This sentences by my mate was stucked in my head for few days, I keep on thinking about it.
In my entire life until now, I'm behave like that, for lot of the time. I just don't man up, and speak.
So life moving on... How's life going people? Having fun in working life?
Was talking with my mate, that he enlighten me some point, in term on keep on bitching about your group project, why don't just stand up and ask them to give you something to do? Yes I did, but not like, Do you have anything for me to do?
is Well, you have to give me something to do!!! "I'm not even kidding" that's what he said. Haha
It's true, all this life, I only being bitchy and complaining about stuff that I'm not comfortable with. Just like this group project. I been hiding for so long, keep silent all the time. This sentences by my mate was stucked in my head for few days, I keep on thinking about it.
In my entire life until now, I'm behave like that, for lot of the time. I just don't man up, and speak.
Also, sometimes I know that I'm being negative too much, Just the way I think.
Is like, while my mate is playing game without me and with other people. I was think that maybe because I'm noob, if I join them I'm gonna ruin his game :/ better let him play with them so that they could win.
But i do know sometimes I just have to speak up and not just waiting until him to invite me to play. Still, sometimes I feel like don't want them to lose, that's why I rather play alone. Haha, but playing alone is freaking bored, you know? that feeling.
Yeah, guess I really can't always stay in the house alone, cause I am just being too negative and think about something that's kinda ridiculous sometimes. For example, I'm a lonely man on a lonely island and no one cares about me eating any piece of shit. Haha
Anyway. End of story.
Is like, while my mate is playing game without me and with other people. I was think that maybe because I'm noob, if I join them I'm gonna ruin his game :/ better let him play with them so that they could win.
But i do know sometimes I just have to speak up and not just waiting until him to invite me to play. Still, sometimes I feel like don't want them to lose, that's why I rather play alone. Haha, but playing alone is freaking bored, you know? that feeling.
Yeah, guess I really can't always stay in the house alone, cause I am just being too negative and think about something that's kinda ridiculous sometimes. For example, I'm a lonely man on a lonely island and no one cares about me eating any piece of shit. Haha
Anyway. End of story.
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
This is iT...
The 2nd time of this Creepy dream.
So... Last Friday after I'd done presentation for my group project, I came back flat and went to get some rest so that I could't make it to gym after.
Dreaming, continuously. From one story(dream), to another story, and the creepy one, begin with this...
Me and one of my class mate, (Indian Muslim Malaysian) we was chilling and normal chatting on a sofa.
Dreaming, continuously. From one story(dream), to another story, and the creepy one, begin with this...
Me and one of my class mate, (Indian Muslim Malaysian) we was chilling and normal chatting on a sofa.
suddenly, an indian kids just came out from nowhere and appear right in front of me, to be exact, he is sat right on top of my knee. He have a massive eye, round and white. and his skin, have something like, sign/tattoo/ or dirt, all over his body.
This might be funny but he was doing something like wanking move. Can't see what is he doing because my whole body just got locked when he appear, I can't move. He is non-stop shaking due to his moves, I try to ask my friend to ask him go away, (No idea why, maybe both of them are Indian) His wanking moves, and I cba body just make me feel so uncomfortable. He eye is staring at me, and I look through his eye, ask him to go away, just about that, everywhere became dark, just his eye balls. Staring me clearly in the dark. The feeling is so real, I can feel that I really could't make a move while I am lying on my bed. And sudden, I just can moves.
Phewwwww.. -.-
This might be funny but he was doing something like wanking move. Can't see what is he doing because my whole body just got locked when he appear, I can't move. He is non-stop shaking due to his moves, I try to ask my friend to ask him go away, (No idea why, maybe both of them are Indian) His wanking moves, and I cba body just make me feel so uncomfortable. He eye is staring at me, and I look through his eye, ask him to go away, just about that, everywhere became dark, just his eye balls. Staring me clearly in the dark. The feeling is so real, I can feel that I really could't make a move while I am lying on my bed. And sudden, I just can moves.
Phewwwww.. -.-
and Today, Monday. I was terribly shattered due to only 4 hours sleep last night and 9am class in the morning. I really can't be bothered anymore so decided to walk home and sleep. Skipped class. Hehe.. It was around 12pm while i felt asleep, Probably just 10mins after my mate came in and talked to me before he leave to work. Same opening, i dreams a lot.
Just in sudden. I can feel that my body can't move again. This time, I know something is happening, AGAIN. I look around, something like "demon" appear right in front of me, i was lying on my bed, and he is just 2 feets away from my bed.
(If you watch western horror movie a lot, you should have an idea which 1 I am talking about, he is wearing hoodie type of costume, or u can call it soulkeeper/reaper)
I could't see his face, since his hood has covered it with shadow. He is waving to me, just like ask me to follow him. The feeling is so familiar. Just about the feeling like my last Friday nightmare.
He is coming closer and closer with his hand, and I just try to point middle finger to him and ask him to fuck off. Not sure if I really did that since my body is "locked", but my mind was thinking that.
and then, I remember that my bad that probably 3 steps away my bed storing some "Holy items" (Don't know how 2 describe it so I just call it Holy item) which my aunt gave me long time ago, during my 1st experience of supernatural incident, i was 17 that time.
I tried my best to struggling with it, and ran to my bag, the creepy part is, I actually felt that my soul has left my body, I can feel that I am floating in the air/ flying to my bag direction try to take out the stuff. Quickly, he's chasing after me and appear right in front of my bag and pushed me away. I floating in the air but I did succeed to grab my bag. Weirdly, the bag I am holding in that moment just suddenly turns to blue color, it was not my bag, my bag is still on the floor. While i was depressingly, my beck bang to the wall (after he pushed me), and this feeling is just my soul is back to my body, and I woke up, the feeling just stayed, because it's just too real.
God damn this dream. The fuck is happening to me?? ?
I am already ain't feeling so well these days, feeling down, emo. Better don't mess up with me.
FML.
Just in sudden. I can feel that my body can't move again. This time, I know something is happening, AGAIN. I look around, something like "demon" appear right in front of me, i was lying on my bed, and he is just 2 feets away from my bed.
(If you watch western horror movie a lot, you should have an idea which 1 I am talking about, he is wearing hoodie type of costume, or u can call it soulkeeper/reaper)
I could't see his face, since his hood has covered it with shadow. He is waving to me, just like ask me to follow him. The feeling is so familiar. Just about the feeling like my last Friday nightmare.
He is coming closer and closer with his hand, and I just try to point middle finger to him and ask him to fuck off. Not sure if I really did that since my body is "locked", but my mind was thinking that.
and then, I remember that my bad that probably 3 steps away my bed storing some "Holy items" (Don't know how 2 describe it so I just call it Holy item) which my aunt gave me long time ago, during my 1st experience of supernatural incident, i was 17 that time.
I tried my best to struggling with it, and ran to my bag, the creepy part is, I actually felt that my soul has left my body, I can feel that I am floating in the air/ flying to my bag direction try to take out the stuff. Quickly, he's chasing after me and appear right in front of my bag and pushed me away. I floating in the air but I did succeed to grab my bag. Weirdly, the bag I am holding in that moment just suddenly turns to blue color, it was not my bag, my bag is still on the floor. While i was depressingly, my beck bang to the wall (after he pushed me), and this feeling is just my soul is back to my body, and I woke up, the feeling just stayed, because it's just too real.
God damn this dream. The fuck is happening to me?? ?
I am already ain't feeling so well these days, feeling down, emo. Better don't mess up with me.
FML.
Friday, February 17, 2012
This is iT...
I had forgot the way that I used to talk..
Went to breakfast today to pass some times, since there is 3 hours break until next class.
With my classmates, Jason and Naz. Had a long chat, and just suddenly I stop my mind and thing, when is the last time, I chat with people like that? It's so chilling..
Perhaps, I din't talk for too long time, Like a real "Yum-cha" Kind of talking...
Hahaha.. I am forgetting who am i.. xD
"I Used to rule the world, Sea will rises when I give the word.
Now in the morning I sleep alone, Sweep the street I used to own... "
"I Used to rule the world, Sea will rises when I give the word.
Now in the morning I sleep alone, Sweep the street I used to own... "
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
This is iT...
Turning back to the Bad side. [Guilty]
[Old Topic] It's not the first time again I missed my class. Haha, but all this 9am class really can suck my d*ck.
This semester is really hard for me and I am becoming lazy and lazier everyday. God damn..
How to change this?? Sometimes have a feeling that student life is really shit especially I'm in the age of going 23. Looking around, most of my friends are already working and earning good money. I am still stuck here. Can't deny the fact that I love my student life just sometimes.. you know? Hahaha
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How to change this?? Sometimes have a feeling that student life is really shit especially I'm in the age of going 23. Looking around, most of my friends are already working and earning good money. I am still stuck here. Can't deny the fact that I love my student life just sometimes.. you know? Hahaha
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